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Going in for New Life...

2009-06-15T21:08:00.002+08:00

I will be going in for NS tml. Life will changed pretty much for me such as botak, lesser freedom to do things I like and can't see my deardear when as I like.

Its a new life to test boys to become man inside. So I should learn to endure the hardships inside. I only hope as soon as I get in, I could get out again as fast as possible.

Not that I don't like life inside but home is a much better place for me. I will miss my family and of course my deardear.

Alright. Will stop here. I will be gone after tml. Hope to come out soon...

NUA MUA BUA

2009-02-17T02:19:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU ALOT DEARDEAR. BUA!!!

UPDATE

2009-02-17T02:17:00.002+08:00

BLOGGER IS NOT FREE AT THE MOMENT.

Life still go on.

2008-08-13T14:29:00.001+08:00

Well. There's nothing much to update too. Just want to say life still goes on everyday. Exams around the corner. Haven study yet. Oh. What the heck.

Presenting a piece of nice music here. Hope you enjoy into ur endorsement.

Birthday!

2008-05-07T22:06:00.004+08:00

haha... Finally pass my TP on my birthday. So happy. And recieved quite alot of presents from my friends le. And I like the present my dear baby give me. A cool looking jacket. Will wear it soon.

And for those who wished me. Thanks to Dear, Nizam, Sok Ling, Joshua, Shermum, Chui Ying, Qing Long, Sheng Yang, Calvin, Woei Ling, Wei Long, Li Qi, Carol, Fang Ying, Carine, Johnson, Hong Yi, Wee Peng, Sheryl, Shermaine, Edric, Jaslynn, Ying Jie, Chun Ming.

Bored...

2008-04-24T16:41:00.002+08:00

Bored... Life have been bored recently. Things not going smoothly. Have been rather lazy with things too. Playing too much games. haha...

But from what I see, I should enjoy every moment I have. Play and study abit hard. haha...

Ok. Sian... Bye all... Will update maybe 3 months later.

Unlucky~

2008-03-06T11:35:00.002+08:00

Recently things have been very unlucky for me. Things not going smoothly. Sigh.. What I want now is all things to just go smoothly for me.

Even things are not going right for me, I will still hang on with my deardear de. Maybe its just a test or some sort. But still, I'm holding her on tight.

Boring~

2008-02-29T01:42:00.003+08:00

Boring... Soooo long nv blog already... haha...

Have been looking for a job recently. Manage to find one from my friends help. Will be working in March to April.

CNY and Exams over... Not much things to do these few days too.. So bored~~

Tata all~

CNY on the way~

2008-02-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

CNY's on the way. Yay~ Got ang bao to take le. haha.. Hope it will be a nice CNY.

Ok, post some stuffs here.

Last friday was my 1 month with my dear. We went eat and watch movie. I'm happy with my ke ai dear dear. Zhu Zhu~

Left 2 more days to stuyd for this sem. Exams will be coming soon...

Next week 13th will be my TP. This time I'm ready for it.

Then follow by Valentine's Day. Will celebrate it with my dear.

And then exams le. Must really study hard for my exams...

Ok. I shall stop here. Tata~

Thoughts..

2008-01-30T20:01:00.000+08:00

Just some of my thoughts to post here...

The rise of economy keep rising and rising. Prices around us keep increasing too.

Went to Salon and have a haircut. It was $12 instead of $10.
Cathay Movie theater have rise to $10.50 on weekends.
My school canteen food have rise from $2.80 to $3.00.
Taxi fare now rise from $2.50 to $2.80. And each time increase by 20 cents instead of 10 cents.
And last year, the price of fuel have gone up 9 times.

All things keep increasing. Wonder what's next...

I have manage to clear 3 of my modules already. Now left 3 more to go. Will study hard for them.

And my TP is coming again after CNY. Hope this time I will pass. I know all my mistakes and will try to correct them. This time I'm not scare le.

Hmm... Want to post something here too.

Ever wonder what kind of people are 'Busy' people? haha... seems complicated? Then i will post what these kinds of people really are.

1. You recieve a sms from your friend. And you reply back to him within 1 minute just want to ask him a few questions. And he can don't reply you for 1 week or even treat it as he didn't recieve this sms. Can't you even just look at at phone and sms for like 10 minutes? Its not even 1 min and its like you dun care or give a damn about it.

2. People want to make themselves busy when they really have nothing to do. Like what hokkiens say,' ciat ba ka eng. You ask a friend to go out with an outing. He keep he saying he busy and he got alot of things to do. End up he just do some stupid stuffs when you find out. What my friend say is correct. This kind of people no need ask them to go out de. 1 time is enough.

3. People who like to ask who's going and who's not. Then end up they not going also. Then ask for fcuk? If you want to go, you go. Dun ask like who's going and later never go. Its like people ask you want to eat what. Then you say got what things to eat. Then in the end, you say you dun want to eat. Wtf right?

4. Imagine you are an organiser to some outing. Then you ask them out. They will give some comments like,"Wah, I not sure I free leh. I want to study or whatever." Its like asking them go out and forcing them like that. If you ever organise some event, you will know.

Of course I'm not that perfect. But I not so as 'Busy' as them. Anyway, alot of people also don't like such people I mention aboved so don't say I'm sensitive or what. Yeah... Suddenly feel so flare up.

Anyway, 2 more days will be my 1st month with my dear. Should be happy. haha...

Tired~

2008-01-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

1 more week to go and CNY will be arriving soon. And a few more days will be me and my dear 1st month le. haha.. Time flies so fast if you think about it.

Hope this year CNY will be fun.

So many troubles too. Dun wish to think about them. So sick and sian. Think of my dear happy le. haha..

Tata all~

Hanging On~

2008-01-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

2 more weeks and it will be CNY. And of course my examinations as well as my holidays~ Hope I will be able to hang on.

Recently many things happen around me. Some of my frens have quarrel. Some not in good mood. My family have some internal problems too. Sigh. Too many to list.

Hope all will go well. I dun wish to see so many miserable things. Really have a bad feeling. Hope my feeling is wrong.

Ahh... Show me the light of hope~

Seven THINGS~

2008-01-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

Been selected by my Dear to do this. haha...

Seven THINGS that scares me
1. God
2. Loneliness
3. Forgetful
4. Bored
5. Gays
6. Botak
7. School Work

Seven THINGS I like most
1. God
2. Family
3. Dear
4. Buddies
5. Friends
6. Money
7. Jay

Seven important things in my room
1. Handphone
2. Wallet
3. Keys
4. Jay's album
5. Can't think of any
6.
7.

Seven random facts about me
1. Love my dear
2. Emo
3. Gamer
4. Music Lover
5. Mei Nan Zhi
6. Sleep alot
7. Like to drive

Seven things I plan to do before I die
1. Have a farm of my own(Maybe?)
2. Experience the 4 seasons(Must)
3. Have a family
4. Work in Jay company(Maybe?)
5. Be a successful person
6. Take care of my parents
7. Live together with my dear

Seven things I can't do
1. Eat durain
2. Eat seafood
3. Can't think of any
4.
5.
6.
7.

Seven things that attracts me to the opposite sex
1. Character
2. Cute
3. Small
4. Wear specs
5. Smart
6. Understand me
7. Nothing more

Seven things I say the most
1. LOL
2. ok
3. wah
4. orh
5. siao
6. hello
7. bye

Seven celebrity crushes
1. Jay
2~7. No more liao

Seven people who have to do this
1. Think I skip this ba. haha...

Only girl in my heart~

2008-01-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

Still got about 3 more weeks to Chinese New Year. Can't wait to celebrate it. I'm so tired of school le. Need a long break I think. haha... Can gamble le.

Before the break, I need to have a hard life during this 3 weeks. Really need to study hard. Won't play too much either.

Want to say out here, I love You Girl~

You will always be in my heart~

For The First TIme

2008-01-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

haha... Just want to post this song here. Im surprise to see how many people hear this song. I upload myself one. haha... Its an oldies. But a really nice song. Enjoy the song.

Are those your eyes, is that your smile
I've been lookin' at you forever
But I never saw you before
Are these your hands holdin' mine
Now I wonder how I could of been so blind

For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...

Can this be real, can this be true
Am I the person I was this morning
And are you the same you
It's all so strange how can it be
All along this love was right in front of me

For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I seeWhen you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...

Such a long time ago
I had given up on findin' this emotion...
Ever againBut you live with me now
Yes I've found you some how
And I've never been so sure

And for the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
Can't believe how much I seeWhen you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...

Learn to be mature...

2008-01-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

Learn to be mature. Accept things for what they are. If it has already been plan for you, just accept it. Fretting over it won't help... Makes you headache only...

If you fail something, just accept the facts. Learn from mistakes...

I'm 20 this year le. Need to think of important things rather than small stupid things. Need to plan how to have a house, a proper job and take care of my family. Think of stupid things make you more useless. That's why sometimes I dun even want to think. Pretend nothing happen at all. But its hard...

Sometimes if we dun let our mind go wild, nothing actually happens at all. Dun want talk so much about it le...

Smile, I'm still me. But a grown up one.

New Year 2008~

2008-01-01T16:39:00.000+08:00

A new year has begun. Hope this year 2008 will be a new start for me and everyone of us!

Yesterday went eat dim sum at around kallang. After that went Esplanade waited for 2 and half hours to see fireworks. Then went pub later to drink. Drank martell + green tea. Couldn't really taste the martell. haha...

After that went home straight le. Nothing much to do also.

School 's going to start again. Back to study life again... Sigh...

Now hoping for Chinese New Year to come. haha... Can take ang bao and play cards.

To the girl I like, will you spend your life with me from today?

New Year 2008 approaching~

2007-12-30T00:55:00.000+08:00

Year 2008 will be approaching. So many things happened in just 1 year.

Sigh... Sad to say during my the last few days of 2007, I failed my tp...

When during tp, I found that there's actually alot I still dun know. Need to buck up for my upcoming test.

Got alot of small sickness these few days, cough still got abit, ear can't hear abit, eyes abit swollen... Hope all these sickness go away ahhhhhhhh...

And hope new year eve will be a fun and memorable day~

Rest~

2007-12-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went watch Alivin and the Chipmunks. Not a bad show. Give 75/100. haha...

Also, I went to have my second practice at BBDC inside the circuit. I manage to handle all courses perfectly with no mistakes. haha... But Im afraid when my TP comes, there will be alot of mistakes. Sigh... Must practice more to overcome my fear. And I still need alot of practice outside the road too. Must pass ah~~

And Chirstmas just around the corner. Hope to enjoy on that day with my friends.

My time plan~

On 23th, mum say must stay at home and have steamboat together with family.
On 24th, going out with friends to celebrate for Christmas.
On 25th, going to church to have some events then maybe going somewhere.
On 26th, go jogging and execrise.
On 27th, 3rd practice for my driving in circuit.
On 28th, My most worried day TP...
On 29th~30th, maybe stay at home do some school work.
On 31th, going out with friends to celebrate for New Year.

Quite busy for the next week..

Appetizer~

2007-12-19T16:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. I suddenly feel like eating alot of things. Go eat sakae sushi, dim sum, and many many more good stuffs.

Want eat until fat fat le. haha... I want bring my girl to eat alot alot of things also. haha...

非你莫屬

2007-12-18T07:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Just want to post something early in the morning...

Through yesterday, I came to know many things. From morning to night...

Chat with mum in the morning before she went work and at night when she couldn't sleep. She say alot of things ah. Like I'm 19 and I should know how to take care of myself. I never want to make my mum sad. So most of the time I listen to her. And she say somethings too. But not too good to post in here.

Yesterday, was feeling pretty down... Sometimes you find someone who could share your happiness or sadness but that person just didn't know. It just like an arrow pierces in your heart and there's nothing you can do...

I remember Sok Ling who I know for more than 10 years told me something when I was in sec 5. She told me a girl who was my past was only looking for someone to play. I didn't believe her and end up getting hurt by the girl I once loved.. My good buddy Nizam in sec life told me too that I should not have been together with her too. Of course, that time I was still 2 years young back then. Somethings I will want to try out. Who dun want to be with his/her dream person forever holding hands? That's everyone wished.

That kind of feelings suddenly come to me yesterday. A feeling which really make me life unforgottable.

When I came in poly, I didn't know anyone. I was so sad that time. Girl leave me. Feel like everything was gone. I started to know many friends and see many different kinds of people.

I know Johnson in poly who help me out alot during all these 4 semesters. He's one of the guy whom I can trust. Of course, there are other people too.

I know Carol in maple who help me out in my study and work life. Though I know her in maple, she's one of the few people whom I can trust only. She introduce me to car instructor, educate me alot of things and help me out in whether she can do. And sometimes we chat bo liao stuffs in msn too. haha... Never regret knowing her.

And of course know alot of people whom are nice to me also. I rather have a few trustables friends rather than many friends whom dun care about you.

And not forgetting my buddies as well, Qing Long, Sheng Yang, Calvin. Few people whom I can trust.

I never want to get hurt again ever since from that. Till now, I still have this phobia of getting hurt. But I have fallen for this girl.

Many times, I wanted to hold her hands. But I keep thinking of the past that haunts me... You can say its a bad memory for me... And I'm so afraid it would happens again...

This song speaks my feelings...

你知道嗎
我很喜歡牽著你的手的感覺
那是什麼樣子
我好希望再來一次

懂得讓我微笑的人
再沒有誰比你有天份
輕易闖進我的心門
明天的美夢你完成

整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球全都繞著你走

愛我非你莫屬
我只願守護由你給我的幸福
愛我非你莫屬
也許會笑著哭但那人是你所以不怕苦

懂得讓我流淚的人
給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕
你同時點亮了星辰

整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球全都繞著你走

愛我非你莫屬
我只願守護由你給我的幸福
愛我非你莫屬
也許會笑著哭但那人是你所以不怕苦

那麼多相遇
偏偏只和你天造地設般產生奇蹟
我心的縫隙
我想除了你任誰也無法填補這空虛

愛我非你莫屬
我只願守護由你給我的幸福
愛我非你莫屬
也許會笑著哭但那人是你所以不怕苦
那個人是你所以不怕苦

Break~

2007-12-16T13:52:00.000+08:00

Common tests over le~ Got 2 weeks break to enjoy. haha... But mostly will be staying at home. Wanna rest more. Everyday come back from school quite tired also.

Went watch 'The Golden Compass' last thurday. Hmm... Not really a nice show.. haha... The story's abit wierd.

Yesterday, I drive on the road from my house to bukit batok. A great experience indeed. My father was beside me. But I do the driving. haha... I hit 80km/h too. Quite fast.

My TP will be on 28th of this month. Hope can pass ah. I went in circuit last friday. Inside was really complicating. And the road was so small and cramp. Just enough for 1 car to move at a time. There are 6 stages to do. S course, crank course, slope, vertical parking, parallel parking and directional change. Only crank course and slope I have problem. The rest should be ok for me.

Will be going in again somemore. Need alot of practices. Must pass!! I dun want to waste time. Yeah...

Sigh...

2007-12-13T12:43:00.001+08:00

Sigh... Sigh... Sigh... Who can understand what's happening to me. No one... Think after today, I will stay try to stay low as much as possible...

Common Tests

2007-12-08T13:43:00.000+08:00

Common tests period around the corner. So stress... Sigh... Alot of things dun know yet. Need to study hard for my tests.

I can't wait till my 2 weeks break come. I want come out play... Christmas eve and new year eve must come out celebrate with friends. Yup. This this of special occasion sure must come out.

And my TP will be on 28th of this month. So scare I'm going to fail... Sigh... Another thing I got to worry about. Hope I can pass. Because if I fail, I need to wait for about 4 to 5 months before my next TP. I can't afford to wait that long.

For now, I have to concentrate on my common tests first. Yup.

Soon...

2007-12-01T23:41:00.001+08:00

1st day of December le... Which means Christmas and New Year are on their way le. Too bad no snow in Singapore. Only cold and windy weather with rain.

This month so many things are on the schedule. My common tests, Christmas eve celebration, New Year celebration and my TP. And so many things on my mind also. Alot alot ah. Going to burst.

Common tests also dun know can pass or not. Sigh...

Thoughts...

2007-11-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today was so boring for me... Rot at home and thinking alot of things.

Went for my driving lesson at 3pm. Then was quite funny one part. Because I was driving the car quite fast in small road. Then got 1 old man cycling very fast also. haha... He was right in front of me. Then I was like giving him pressure to cycle faster. Then my instructor also laugh and ask me to faster overtake the old man. Yeah...

Came back home and rot again thinking alot of things. My mind is always over run with thoughts. haha... Can't help it. Sigh... So sian... Tata...

You~

2007-11-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

You make me smile~

蒲公英的約定

2007-11-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

Like this song alot. Especially the last part. Lyrics so meaning... Suddenly also no mood. Sigh...

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音　
多少年后也还是很好听
将愿望折纸飞机寄成信　
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币　
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定　
那样清晰　
打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行　
是你如今　
唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心　
我们却注意窗边的
蜻蜓我去到哪里你都跟很紧　
很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定那样清晰　
打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行是你如今　
唯一坚持的任性

一起长大的约定　那样真心　
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　你是友情
还是错过的爱情

Moodless...

2007-11-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

I'm so moodless now... Don't know what to do. Keep thinking and thinking also no use. Think of my family matters. Think of my future. Sigh... Everyday woke up go school study and do projects. Come home see the problems my family have... Its so meaningless like that... I wonder if anything happen to me, how many of my friends will actually come and help me. Argh... What am I thinking...

Now, there are only some things which are important to me,

1st My parents(they are the ones who bought me up)
2nd My buddies(those whom I can trust)
3rd My girl(the only one whom I see myself with)

Other things I don't really give a damn... Hate to say this...

Time...

2007-11-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

Ever wonder what time is about? Some of you might say is the clock lor. See what time then what time.

To me, I think time is scary. Sometimes it go fast and sometimes to go slow. You don't know when is when.

Now its already the 4th week since school reopens. And I don't know whether its fast or slow. Actually, I want time past quickly. Because I wanna see what my future holds for me. But on the other hand, I want time go past slowly too. Because so many things I want to do before growing up.

But for now, I just wanna enjoy every moments I have. Yup.

Rest...

2007-11-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's a public holiday. yay~ Can sleep till late late. No need wake up so early.

Yesterday, went watch the movie Stardust. Its a nice movie. Recommended for you guys to watch. Many great movies coming out soon too. haha...

Suddenly feel like going K box again. Wanna sing and shout al my voice out. haha... Hoping to go soon...

I love you~

2007-11-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

If only I have more courage, I would hold your hands and never let you go.
If only I have more confident, I would look into your eyes and tell you how much you mean to me.

Each time I see you, inside my heart I'm beating fast. So much to tell you yet I'm keeping it to myself. So much to express myself yet I'm keeping it to myself.

If only I have you, life would certianly be wonderful.
You brighten my life.
You sparkle my life.

YOU are the reason I'm here~

Short peom:
Shortest word for me is I.
Sweetest word for me is love.
Only word for me is you.

Tired...

2007-11-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

Nv blog for yesterday. Now blogging. Yesterday went to buy Jay album. But they say Singapore will delay his release of album on the 6th November. Have a wait a few more days. Sian...

Afterthat went with my friends to some Thai restaurant and dine there. Was so tired after reaching home. Bathe and fall asleep le...

Today rot at home all the way. Not feeling well too... Feeling abit headache. Sleep and sleep...

Think will stop here ba. Tired and stress with school work...

Jay's 8th album tracklist~

2007-10-31T09:40:00.000+08:00

haha... Just posting Jay's 8th album tracklists for those who can't wait to see.

1. 牛仔很忙
2. 彩虹
3. 青花瓷
4. 陽光宅男
5. 蒲公英的約定
6. 無雙
7. 我不配
8. 扯
9. 甜甜的
10. 最長的電影

Can't wait for this Friday to buy his album. Hope they will be as nice as his usual style.

Escape!!!

2007-10-28T19:00:00.000+08:00

haha... Ytd went to Escape with my friends. It was quite fun though some games can't be play. But at least we got a complimentary tickets which will entitle us to come agian to Escape for free entry within 3 months. Not a bad deal. haha... Hope the games will be available when we go again.

After that, went to bugis area and dine there. Ate quite lot. =x haha... Was too hungry ah. haha...

Hmm... Finally, alot of things go le. Quite satisfied. haha... You might think I like to go out and play. But the answer is no. Last time wehn I was young, all I do was come back from school, play game and then sleep. Everyday for me was like this. No life.

Now at least I go out more often and see people. haha... Not like last time le.

And time pass really fast. So fast I'm in Poly year 2.2. Soon, I will step out into this world and see the real world.

haha... But for now, I'm going to enjoy myself first and study hard. Yup. School's starting again tomorrow. Another long week.

Tomorrow Escape!

2007-10-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

Another week over... And marks the end of my 2nd week of my school term. Manage to adjust back to study life again. haha...

Suddenly, have a liking to strawberry. haha... Now everyday, I drink a packet of strawberry milk. haha... So nice~~~ Cao Mei Cao Mei Cao Mei~~~ haha...

Tomorrow will be going to Escape!!! Hope dun rain ah. Really... That time go there, then never open. Somemore want go there take about 1 hour plus. Really hope tomorrow wun rain.

彩虹

2007-10-25T17:45:00.000+08:00

Jay's new 2nd song boardcast 彩虹.

Enjoy~

Bored...

2007-10-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

Wah... Tomorrow school again... Sian... Will be a long day. From 8am to 5pm... Will be another long week for me...

Jay's 8th album will be out on 2nd November. haha... I have been saying this like for 3 times. haha... Its another 10 more days before the release of the album. Still have to wait for his new songs. Hope to hear 1 or 2 emo songs sang by him.

Anyway, can't wait for the Escape outing next sat. haha... Hope it will not rain. Have been waiting very long to go there. haha...

Tired...

2007-10-20T01:23:00.000+08:00

Whew... Finally 1st week of poly life in sem 2.2 just pass. haha... Was waiting for today to post my thoughts. Everyday post also sian. haha...

Hmm... The modules for this sem for my course can say is very hard. Lots of hands on are required. Although only 4 modules, all also hard. Will study hard ba.

As for the attachment thing for sem 3.1, not everyone have the chance to go. Only 20 students are selected to go for overseas attachment, 20 for local attachment and 20 for in school project. The rest I'm not so sure. And my course now have about 100 people. Means I have about 1/5 chance of going to local attachment.

And the criteria for the requirements are
1. GPA for sem 1.1, 1.2 and 2.1
2. Common Test for 2 of my modules this sem(Wafer Fabrication and Micro Technology)
3. Attendance, attitude for all modules.

Wah... I see le I think must work hard for my common tests and come for all lessons for now. I want to go for local attachment. And its a must for me. Sigh... See how ba... Will study hard.

As for my driving test, it will be on 28th Dec. Although still long, I still ahve not much confident in passing. Heard from some of my friends saying that passing is not really that simple. And it's not up to you to say easy or hard. Its about luck thing. Because you will not know what happened on the test day de. Examples are like raining heavily on your test day. You can say bye bye to 50% of your chance in passing. Because you can't see clearly the road and you will tend to get more nervous. Another is some cars like taxi drivers just come and go as they like cutting your lane forcing you to slow down or stop. All these also affect de. Want to pass also not easy.

Anyway, I just let God decide my life ba. Afterall, my future is on his hands. Yup.

Will end here~

Cold weather~

2007-10-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Nothing to talk about... Tomorrow school's going to start... Can't get to sleep... Too many thoughts in my mind... Dun know ba... Maybe I'm thinking too much... Sigh... Sigh... Sigh...

If only you know what's the other party thinking about, it would be good... I forgotten when since I have been feeling like this...

I always hate myself for being so useless... This is something other people wouldn't understand... The night is long and many thoughts come to your mind. Its not I don't want to try. I'm afraid I can't do it... Sad huh...? Maybe its because of my past ba.

All I can do is sigh only...

The Detective~

2007-10-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

Went watch the movie 'The Detective'. The movie was abit wierd at first. But at the last part, I understand what the shows about. Not a bad show ba. Recommend people to watch. haha...

Then went eat at Bukit Batok then went CCK park walk around and enjoy the senery. haha... A lot of couples also at there. =x haha...

Heard the news that Jay album coming out at 2nd November. Can't wait for his new songs to arrive~ Will end here ba. Bye all~~~

Stay~

2007-10-06T03:31:00.000+08:00

Stay 因为夜太美

寂寞的月亮需要星星陪

Stay 不管夜多黑

不管天会亮不去想明天

带我飞远远的

到天涯到海角

浩瀚的天际里只要有你陪

也许苦也许甜

不害怕不后悔

因为爱让我们再也分不开 Just Stay

Stay 因为夜太美

寂寞的月亮需要星星陪

Just Stay 就算是不对

就算是沉伦错误也是美

带我飞远远的

到天涯到海角

浩瀚的天际里只要有你陪

也许苦也许甜

不害怕不后悔

因为爱让我们再也分不开 Stay

带我飞远远的

到天涯到海角

浩瀚的天际里只要有你陪

也许苦也许甜

不害怕我不后悔

因为爱让我们再也分不开 Stay

haha... Just want to post the music and lyrics here. This show is doing now in channel 8 from 2am to 4am I think. Its a nice song by Fann Wong. Many of you will know ba. I think this song got about 8 years or even 10 years le. haha... Enjoy~

Outing~

2007-10-06T03:06:00.000+08:00

Have fun yesterday with friends. haha... But too bad we went all the way to Escape and it didn't open. It only open on Sat and Sun or School holidays. Sigh... Our mood sunk to the bottom when it didn't open. :(

But still, we went to MindCafe and relax there. At first, I thought it was going to be a boring day. haha... It turned out to be a fun too. We played Game of Life ans Sitting Ducks. haha... Was quite fun la. haha... Played from 2.30pm to 6pm. Yup.

After that, went K Box at Marina. Yup Sang from 7pm to 10pm. Although 3 hours only, it was pretty fun too. I'm al ittle sad ah. I didn't sing as expected. I was having cough. Those who know I can sing better will know that I can do better. haha... My dream leh, to become a singer... Wait long long. haha...

Overall, was fun. haha... But still, I miss Escape... Argh... Next time will go again. Yup.

Will end here. Night everyone~

STM(Short Term Memory)

2007-10-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

Recently, I just found out that I seem to have STM(Short Term Memory) which is something not good for me...

Examples are like when I go out with my family, I thought I have bring my handphone along with me. Then I found out that I didn't bring it. I thought I lost is somewhere. I keep asking my mum to call my handphone see. No one answer. When I reached home, I saw my handphone on the table outside my room...

And the other time, I was pouring a glass of milk and left it on the table. I went and do my stuffs. Hours later, I went back to the table and saw my glass of milk there...

And yesterday, I thought I have lost my money on the way home. But I found out that I left my money on the bed. It was under my bed when I was cleaning my home. Good thing I didn't lose my money. My mum was scolding me...

I can't believe I forget things just few minutes ago... Maybe I need to see a doctor or maybe I'm just forgetful...

And my cough, it can't seems to get better. I want to see doctor but my mum just told me that it will go away after a while. I have been coughing for 1 month already...

Now I'm feeling so gloomy. Sigh...

Rotting at home...

2007-09-30T01:23:00.000+08:00

Have been rotting at home these few days. haha... Need a little break. Not going out for these few days ba. Haven get my pay.

List of things I want to do when i get my pay~

1. Go K box. (A must go before holiday ends~)
2. Go east coast park cycle. (Lots of happy and sad memories there...)
3. Watch the movie Resident Evil on 11th Oct. (Like Resident Evil alot)
4. Go Escape and have fun. (Another must go~)
5. Last thing get Jay Chou album. (Its getting me impatient...)
6. Playing Big 2 with money. (Not so important, hehe)
7. Work out in gym. (My weak body... sigh...)
8. Go shopping. (Maybe?)
9. Eat dim sum buffet. (I want eat alot!)

That's all ba. haha...

My parents went back malaysia for my aunt's funeral... Sigh... Hope my parents come home safely. Malaysia have been very dangerous recently.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwL7ylq2SLM

haha... this link here is by a famous guy in malaysia. Some of you might have heard him. The video is about him in beach and seeing cute girls. The song is nice too. haha...

Red apple and Brown Chocolate~

2007-09-23T00:10:00.000+08:00

Finally get the chance to get tan. haha... But now I'm like a red apple and brown chocolate. And my whole body is feeling pain... But that's the purpose of going sentosa. haha...

My IS enrolment will be coming le. I don't know which module to choose. I need to choose 2 among 30 over choices. So many... sian...

Nothing much to talk le. Will end here. Night all~

Finally~

2007-09-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

I got my Secret soundtrack le. hehe... Cost me $25. haha... It comes along with a photo album of the movie Secret too. haha...

Anyway, I stop working for now le. Need to take about 2 weeks break before school starts. haha... I'm quite a lazy person. Alright, tomorrow will be going sentosa with my friends. Hope I get tan. haha...

Results~

2007-09-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

Alright here's my results~

ANALOGUE CIRCUIT DESIGN & APPLICATIONS
C

DIGITAL ELECTRONICS
C

ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 3A
C

FUNDAMENTALS OF OBJ-ORIENTED PROGRAMMING
D

INNOVATION & ENTERPRISE IN ACTION
PX

TELECOMMUNICATION PRINCIPLES
B+

Yeah. And overall GPA for this sem is 2.1522

I'm so happy that I pass because I really didn't put in any effort at all. So maybe I pass is because I lucky. haha... Going to sem 2.2 next term which is the 4th term already. So fast...

Anyway, I bought the movie Secret already. haha... It come with a free poster and 4 photographs. hehe... I'm still looking for the sound track. Anyone find it somewhere? Please tell me. Thanks. Will end here. Byeeee~~~

Conclusion~

2007-09-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

I just went cut my hair. hehe... Didn't cut my front hair because i wanna grow long. Now can cover my left eye le. haha...I was thinking whether to dye my front hair white or not. Not that I want to attraction attention. Just that I want to dye long time ago. Can you guys tell me whether want to dye mah? haha...

Still waiting for Jay's 8th album. Crap, Crap, Crap, Crap, Crap. They change the release date to 26th October. Still so long... And I have been finding his movie "Secret" the Sound Track. If you guys see it somewhere, please tell me. Its limited edition!!!

Today finally have the time to blog. Have been working the past few days after my examination. Got my pay le. Went Souel Garden with my friends to celebrate. haha... I ate alot of things. 4 plates of marinated chicken, mee siam, sushi, bao, satay and ice cream for dessert. haha... All for $25.70. hehe... Wanna buy some clothes too~

Still coughing la. Don't know what's wrong with me. Have been coughing for 10 days le. Sian...

And regarding the the matter to someone, I think I won't ask anymore. Its like wasting my time asking her again. Anyway, need to thanks shermay and chui ying for comforting and waking me up. hehe... If don't have you all, I die le...

Unlucky...

2007-09-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I am so unlucky. I play Big 2 last 2 days and I lose about $120. Really unlucky. You see. I got a nice hand yet I had no chance of putting also... I got 3, 3, 3, 4, 4. I got 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 with the same colour, can consider the biggest liao. I also got the biggest 2 of Spade. I thought I would win. But end up, I put 1 card only and lose double. Fcuking sway. I really hate my luck.

When I play with my friends, I would still win sometimes. But when I play with my cousins, I would lose till until choke loss. Ren Suan Bu Ru Tian Suan...

Never go to work for 2 days already... Lose $90 also...

Sigh... Lose money, sick, everything also lose la... Sigh...

What I want to do~

2007-09-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

Holidays here. And there's many things I want to do. I want to sing in K Box, clubbing if possible, tan in sentosa, cycle in east coast park, train in gym, play Big 2, shop to buy new shirts and accessories and can't wait for Jay new album to come out. haha...

Sigh... Now feeling sick... Have fever, cough, sore throat...

Hope my sickness goes away soon...

Holidays~~~

2007-08-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Holidays here already! Got good and bad things... Bad things is won't be so free. Good things is can earn money. haha...

I'm so bored here.... Chat so many rubbish with my friend...

There's something on my mind... Hmm... But I hope this thing on my mind is not a bad thing... I was waiting for something. Yet, this thing seems to be a bad thing instead of a good thing. Sigh...

I haven try yet... Should I try it and know whether its a good thing or a bad thing?

Please tell me what should I do, anyone?

A nice phrase from my friend, "All good things come to those who wait or all good things come to an end?"

值得

2007-08-22T01:40:00.000+08:00

关于你好的坏的都已经听说

愿意深陷的是我没有确定的以后

没有谁祝福我反而想要勇敢接受

爱到哪里都会有人犯错希望错的不是我

其实心中没有退路可守跟着你错跟着你走

我们的故事爱就爱到值得错也错的值得

爱到翻天覆地也会有结果不等你说更美的承诺

我可以对自己承诺我们的故事爱就爱到值得

错也错的值得是执著是洒脱留给别人去说

用尽所有力气不是为我那是为你才这么做

haha... This song I listen to it when I was 4 years old. That time still dun know what's the meaning of this song but listen to it as it's a nice song. 15 years le this song~~~ So many memories.

Stress~~~

2007-08-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

After 3 papers, I'm already worrying whether I can pass or not for this sem... So stress with exams... Feel like giving up...

Hope I can pass all my modules. Left 2 more papers to go~

Other self...

2007-08-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

坐着我的摩托车载你缓缓的离开

考不上好的学校可以不微笑就走

把手慢慢交给我放下心中的困惑

雨点从两旁划过割开两种精神的我

经过老伯的家篮框变得好高

爬过的那棵树又何时变得渺小

这样也好开始没人注意到（你）我

等雨变强之前我们将会分化软弱

趁时间没发觉让我带着你离开

没有了证明没有了空虚

基于两种立场我会罩着你

趁时间没发觉让我带着你离开

这不是顽固这不是逃避

没人帮着你走才快乐

This song really very emo. haha... Just want to post my moodless thought heres...

Cannot get into a good school... Can just leave without subtle smile.
Take your hands and slowly give them to me... Put down the feel of being at a loss in your heart.
I go pass my uncle's home... The basket frame has become very tall...
The tree I climbed before... When did it become so paltry?

Exams...

2007-08-15T13:35:00.000+08:00

Exams around the corner... So slack... I haven't start studying... In fact, I have no mood to study at all... Study until so hard also no use... Might as well do something you like when you are still young. After all, when you grow up, you only work and work everyday. Really no time to do the things you like.

But still, I study just to pass so I won't let my parents money go into the drain.

Sometimes when you are unlucky, things just go the way you don't want...

Will end here...

Something to share

2007-08-05T00:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Happen to watch the tv late night. Then come across an advertisement. Its about having stress. And it say, one of the ways to relief stress is by having tears coming out. Yeah. Tears from your eyes. Funny. Tears can relief stress. That's why sometimes when you cry, you feel a bit better.

Yeah. That's about it.

So bored... My luck have not been very good this few days... Hope it gets better.

Now my driving lessons start to learn parking already. haha... Its quite easier than i thought. Hope to learn more soon. Pretty fun~

Ok. Will end here. Night all zzz

I saw HER today~

2007-07-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

I saw HER today... haha... Big deal... Like most of my friends say. You see her but cannot do anything is also nothing.

But never mind... To me... Can see HER good enough. Sometimes wish can hear her voice. Never really hear her voice before. >.<

Today in bus, I can't help but keep looking at her. Its like see her 1 time in a year...

haha... So near yet so far. haha... She sure say, who want to be near with you. haha...

Sigh... That's me... I always think negative. I am very pessimistic.

When she alight from the bus, my heart sank to the bottom...

Feel like telling her many things. But... Sigh...

Don't know whether she will see this or not... 我舍不得离开...

Day at Sentosa

2007-07-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

Whew... Today had a tiring day at Sentosa. Really tiring.

Well, not because of the activity there. But because of the push ups I do.

My friends and I were playing poker cards and I keep losing. Lose and you have to 20 push ups. After that, my friend rise the wager up to 40 and 60 push ups subsquently. In the end, I do 80 push ups and own 120 push ups.... I totally cannot do anymore after that. Hands also blister because of the sand.

But quite fun. Can train my weak body too.

The weather was not pretty good and didn't manage to make myself tan. haha...

My friends manage to make friends with some girls from Norway. They exchange number with them. Maybe they going out with them. haha... But me not interested...

Overall, it was fun. But I seems to feel tired and moodless after that. haha... Don't know why...

All about Jay!!!

2007-07-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

Ok~ Today I will talk about Jay stuffs.

Firstly, he will be coming to Singapore on 30th July!!! Too bad the visitation limit is over. Otherwise I sure go. So many people like him... Sian... Don't have chance to see him real life. haha....

Secondly, his new own made movie 不能说的秘密 will be out on cinema on 8th August!!! Yeah... A day before National Day. haha... Will be watching his new movies with my buddies.

Thirdly, his 8th album will be out on mid September!!! Can't wait to listen to his new songs.

Lastly, his 3rd concert will be on 24th November!!! It will be in Shanghai. Sian... Don't think have the chance to go at all... Too far...

Wah... So many things to keep a look out for him.

Tomorrow will be going to Sentosa early in the morning with my friends. hehe... I want to make myself TAN. My body's too WHITE. haha... Sure become roasted apple tomorrow. It will be a new me then. haha... Everytime change.

Attitude change

2007-07-21T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I'm going to say it here now. My attitude's going to change a little. Well... I don't really change for the bad. What kind of attitude you treat me will be what kind of attitude you get back from me.

I hate some people. You know... Like when you bought a new shirt, they will say," Hey, why you buy so ugly shirt? Not nice leh.". Then when you have long hair, they will say" Hey, why you grow this kind of hair? Like ah kua leh." Then what worst is. "Hey, your shoes cost how much? Fake one or not?"

Fucking hate this people...

Next time people say me like this I say" hey, that one your mother ah? Why so fat? Why you so stupid, results so low?

Don't agitate me... How you treat me will be how I treat you back... Don't believe you try me.

TP on 28th Dec~~~

2007-07-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

My TP(Traffic Police Test) will be on 28th Dec. It may seems long. But I have many things to learn. I don't even know how to drive a manual car yet. >.<

But of course, we are not born with knowledge to handle things. We need to learn. Yeah...

Tomorrow will be my first lesson of driving lesson. Very scare. haha... I scare my instructor will be quite impatient of me.

But I'm sure I will be able to handle it. Yup.

When I pass, I can 'hao lian' to my friends already. haha... Not everyone can have car lisence.

You smart also no use. You have to be 'Zai'. I saw alot of JC students fail also. But rather, alot of ITE students pass. Yeah...

Wah... I also saw quite alot of girls learn driving. haha... Some cannot make it one. Keep making the instructor angry. But some very 'Zai'. I like to see 'Zai' girls driving. haha...

Ok... Will see how my training goes~~~

Ai Zai!!

2007-07-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Today nothing much happened.

I'm quite scare for 1 of my modules. I hope that pass that module.

Today on bus to home, I saw 2 girls on motor bike. Wah... They very 'Ai Zai' lor. haha... They wear those kind of shirts which cover some of the body parts only. haha... I saw alot of ah pek watching until very shiok.

I see liao also stun. These kind of girls are the kind of girls I like alot. haha...

Ok... I got to go sleep already. Night...ZZzzz

Somethings to share...

2007-07-05T01:53:00.000+08:00

Never blog for quite long already.... Just want to share some few things.

Hmm... Have you guys ever wish for something you want? And when you get it, are you happy with it? And is that the thing you really want? haha... I want to share a short story about this. All these are from a story book. I just summarise the story short.

There was once a King call Midas(means money) in Greece. He was the richest man on earth. He have tons of gold and jewels in his treasure vault. However, he was not really satisfy with what he have. Instead, he wanted more. Something that can let him be richer and richer. While he was on a way to his slumber, a saint appear and ask him," King Midas, how are you doing with your gold? Are you happy with them? Do you need me to help you in anything?" King Midas reply," Er, I'm not really that happy with all these gold I'm having. I wanted something special, Something that can let me touch all things into gold. Can you fulfill my wish?" The siant answered," Oh! The golden touch!!! What a marvalleous idea!! But are you sure, you won't regret it?" The king reply," HAHAHA!!! Why should I regret it? I can't wait for this to happen on me. HAHAHA...."

The sage reply,"ALright, I will grant you your wish." At this instance, the sage perform some magic on King Midas and vanished into the thin air...

The king cound't believe it. So he went to touch his housewares. When he touch the vase, it turn into a golden vase! He went to touch his silverwares and same the thing happened. He was very elated about it.

He went to the garden and touch the flowers and butterflies. They turned into gold too.

When he return to his dining room to have dinner, he lay his hands on the bread. It turn into gold on his hands. He took the cup and it turn into gold as well. He was feeling gloom about it. He can't even have a simple meal....

When his daughter heard about it, she ran to his father and told him about it. "Dad, why have all the flowers and butterflies turn into gold." The king reply,"Oh, My daughter, don't you like the garden to be fill with gold?" NO!!! I don't want those cold and stiff gold in our elegant garden. I hate it!!!. In this instance, King Midas went and hug her daughter to console her. And at that moment, she turn into gold as well. King Midas cried. He couldn't do anything to revive his daughter.

In this moment, the sage appear and ask him,"So, King Midas, how do you find the golden touch? Did it bring you more gold to your kingdom?" King Midas cried out,"Ohh no. I don't want any gold in my country. I don't want any golden touch. I just want my precious daughter back."

"Ha!! So you have finally realise having something you want will not really satisfy you. I ask you now again. Is the golden touch important or the simple meal that you usually had? Is the golden touch important or your precious little daughter?"

The king answer," I don't want any golden touch. I just want a simple meal that can last me long. A daughter who can bring liveliness to me."

"Alright, since you have learn your lessons, I will teach you a way to dispel the golden touch."

The king follow the sage's advice and finally, he and his daughter reunite again. And all the things that was touch by King Midas with the golden touch was turned back into normal.

King Midas decided to give all of his gold to other villagers and enjoy his life in the garden with his daughter.

Yeah... So that's the end of the story. Hope you guys enjoy it. Know the moral of the story. Doesn't mean having a thing or a person you want will bring you happiness. Some poeple want to get the things they want. But when they got it, they are not happy at all. Yup. That's all...

haha... I got another thing to share. Something short one. haha... Really.

Not sure you guys have experienced this. Do you ever go out with a friend and he's feeling sad. You know he's sad but he try to act happy. He's drinking and you can know the sorrows from his eyes. I see already also feel sad. That kind of feeling not everyone can understand. Happy outside, yet sorrows inside. Sigh...

I got to go sleep already. Night...Zzz

Results out...

2007-06-30T00:59:00.000+08:00

Here's my result for my common tests. Not really done well though...

TELECOMMUNICATION PRINCIPLES 88/100
FUNDAMENTALS OF OBJECT-ORIENTED PROGRAMMING 40/100
ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 3A 81/100
ANALOGUE CIRCUIT DESIGN & APPLICATIONS 83/100
DIGITAL ELECTRONICS 78/100

I wasn't really happy with my results. I expected more. Maybe I'm asking too much...

haha... I fail 1 module. But I don't really care about it. I have no interest in that module anyway. I'm just gonna pass my that module.

Anyway, 不能说的秘密 is out in CD version. My blog song is the CD version. haha... Enjoy...

Night everyone...zzz

Raining now........

2007-06-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

Got back 2 of my papers... Not really good results. Will post again when I have got all my results...

Have my haircut too already. Doesn't look really that good. But can make it anyway. haha...

Lin Jun Jie new album will be out on 29th June. Hope to listen great and nice songs from him.

My master, Jay Chou will also produce an album very soon. About 2 more months. 1 of his new songs is out. The song is '不能说的秘密'. It is a theme song for his movie too. I have listen to its demo and find it alright. FM933 say his new song will be playing exclusively on 27th-29th June. Try to catch the song. haha... After his production of his movie and and album, his concert will out accordingly too. The songs for the concert will be make up of 3 albums, '十一月的蕭邦', '依然范特西' and his new 8th album. Looking forward to all these~~~

Hmm... Is raining now..... Often, the ambience around us always affect our mood. Like raining, you will start to think a lot. Maybe that's me.

Raining at night... A lot of things on my mind. But I won't say out in here. Some things are meant to be kept secret forever. A lot of you have things to keep with you throughout your life too. You might tell yourself to forget it. But can you really forget it? Or have you even forget it. Sometimes memories just flashed in our mind even though you don't want it.

This song '东风破by Jay.

Sleepy...zzz

Holidays over...

2007-06-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

Wah... So fast 2 weeks over already... And holidays over as well.

Hmm... I have been watching the show 'Bao Jin Tian'. haha... A nice and thrilling show. My dad bought some of the vcd and I watch together with him. haha...

The show really teach some moral stories too. Like never let put parents beg to us. Heaven will punish you accordingly. Well, I don't really believe it too. But this kind of thing really happens. In the end, the guy finish got strike by lightning and ended his life. hmm.. yeah... that's all.

Whew... tommorrow school going to start again... Sian...

Night everyone...zzz

Back in my blog

2007-06-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

Whew... So long never blog already. A little bit tired these few days. haha...

I do nothing much during these 2 weeks holidays. And school's going to start soon. So tired...

Just change my blogskin. haha... Nice? Give some comments. haha... I like white and black together. These 2 colours go along well. Not much people like though...

haha... These few days keep playing Maple. Play until midnight. haha... You guys might think I'm so childish, playing Maple at such age. But I have earn S$300 selling my Maple account already. I'm going to earn more. haha... Played until I go NS then stop, by then should have around $1k+++~~~ haha... Thinking too much...

Last Sat I went K box with friends and Sun play Big 2 with them. haha.... I lose though... Sad...

I don't like to smoke and drink. But I like to gamble alot. haha... Also another bad point. But can't be help. My parents were big gamblers last time. I have follow in their footsteps. haha...

But then I don't really play until that extreme. The most also play until $100 only.O.O haha...

Sigh... haha... Going to oink oink already... Night all~~~

2 weeks break~~~

2007-06-12T02:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm... now common tests all over already~~~And holidays for 2 weeks. Don't know what to do. Might be going to continue with my car licence. haha... whoa... still got a long way to go.

Want go go East Coast again. hehe... I like the senery there.

Nothing much to blog about this few days. Will blog again sometimes...

4 down~~~

2007-06-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

1 more paper to go~~~ And tommorow I will be free from common tests.

But tommorow''s paper will be a little tough. See how I do Tommorow~~~

Night Night everyone~~~

3 down ~~~

2007-06-07T01:52:00.000+08:00

whew... 2 more papers to go and I'm free... haha... Tomorrow will be another hard day.

Hmm... This few days suddenly think of something....... hah... Don't feel like caring about that something. But just can't do it... Well... I take it as part of growing up. We have to handle things.

Good night everyone

2 down~~~

2007-06-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

haha... 2 common test papers over already.

3 more to go and I will have a 2 weeks holidays~~~

Lucky all my friends also study. Hang around with them will study.

Alright... Back to studying... Will post again~~~

1 down~~~

2007-06-05T01:46:00.000+08:00

Done with 1 common test paper...

4 more to go~~~

Tml will be a early day. Yup. Will study hard for my common test papers.

Common test~~~

2007-06-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

Sian... Common test tomorrow already... I have barely study for every modules. I think I will do badly for the common tests. Sigh... That's me... No confidence one...

I am tired of studying already actually. I want to start working life. No life also... Keep studying.

Well, maybe now, I try to enjoy my life before I start working in about 5 more years...

Hmm... I'm beginning to feel more bad than ever... hah... dun know how...

The meaningful song~~~

2007-05-29T01:15:00.000+08:00

haha... The show is finally over.

I found out that many want the song" Would you be there?" haha... And those who have the song put it on their blog. I found at least 10 people have it on their blogs. haha... But its really a nice and meaningful song.

I bet Redwan Ali will be famous after this song. haha...

Hope he comes out with more songs like this.

Would You Be There?

2007-05-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me?
And whisper in my ear that’s ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time?

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me?
And touch my lips with tender love and care.
Would you die for me? Would you run with me?
And never look back.

Chorus (1)

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one?
To take my breath away.

repeat Chorus (1)

Would you be there…?

If I away, would you still think of me?
And wish that you could hold me now. (hold me now)
Would you die for me?
Would you run with me, all the way?

Chorus (2)

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one?
To take my breath away.

Would you be there to save my soul-oh tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there?
To kiss my pain away.

repeat Chorus (2)

Would you be there…? For me…

Hanging on~~~

2007-05-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

Whew~~~

Im still hanging on. haha...

Sometimes life's hard, but we still have to go through it. Yeah...

Oh, I have been looking for a song "Would you be there" by Redwan Ali. If you guys got watch the 9pm show Mars vs Venus, you would know this song. Yeah. Would appreciate if anyone could send me this song~~~

And to my friends out there, try my test. haha...

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/410781

It wouldn't hurt to spend a few minutes trying my test.

Night everyone~~~

Emptiness...?

2007-05-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I wondered what I have been hoping for this few weeks. Sigh... Why I just dun have the courage and guts... Really hate myself... I sometimes think I'm such a useless guy...

Anyway, common tests coming soon... Which mean holidays coming too. I'm thinking of going East Coast to cool myself...

Life's fill with emptiness sometimes...

Birthday Boy~~~

2007-05-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

haha... So happy until cannot sleep. haha...

Not many people wish me. haha...

Thanks to my family for the cake. haha...

And to my brothers~~~

Thanks to Long, Yang and Calvin who celebrated with me on the 5th.

And those who wish me Happy Birthday~~~

Thanks to Carine jie, Fang Ying, Geraldine, Qishan, Joshua, Nizam, Lee Inn, Ellen, Ashley, Carol, Wei Long, Wui Jun, Li Qi, Cheryl, Johnson, Hong Yi, Kenny, Yvonne, Jasmine, Sok Ling, Sheryl, Ying Jie, Wendy, Woei Ling and Wan Ting~~~

Birthday over already~~~

MY BIRTHDAY~~~

2007-05-06T17:17:00.000+08:00

My Birthday is just a few more hours away~~~ haha...

I have received 4 T-Shirts, 1 wrist band and 1 clover key chain. Yup.

I would be happy if you guys just wish me Happy Birthday~~~ haha...

Wish me on msn, friendster, handphone or my blog also can~~~

The month of MAY~~~

2007-05-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

haha... I simply love the month of May a lot. haha... Maybe its because of my birthday on May. haha...

Anyway, have you all got the things I want??? haha... Never mind if you can't get them, but at least wish me Happy Birthday on 7th of May. haha...

Ok... This saturday will be going out with friends to celebrate. haha... Will be a boring day, so i didn't call all my friends. Last year and year before last, I opened a bbq. haha... Both also end up food finished. haha... This year and next year not opening. Maybe before I go NS, I will open 1 again. Yup. haha...

Whew~~~ End here~~~ Byeee everyone~~~

Count down to my birthday...

2007-04-29T14:07:00.000+08:00

haha... Today won't be posting anything much. haha... Just here to post a little thing for someone to see... haha...

I guess I still like the girl. yup.

Brithday coming soon~~~

2007-04-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

haha... Today meet up with carine jie. haha... She gave me birthday present already. So nice of her. haha... The present is a 4 leaf clover keychain which will bring luck. yup.

Feel bad forgetting her birthday this year. Sorry jie. haha... Next year give you extra. yup.

Anyway I hope for more presents. haha... Wish me happy birthday on my day also happy. haha...

What I wish for~~~

A black shirt(Must be double-layered)
Mp3 player
Any luck charms

Will update more~~~

Night everyone~~~

Things on my mind...

2007-04-20T02:25:00.000+08:00

haha... There are a few things on my mind that I would like to blog.

1st thing is a saying, "saying is easier than doing". Sometimes doesn't mean when you don't feel like hating a person means you can. How can you understand people's feeling? I killed your mum. Would you say, I forgive you, I will not hate you. Won't right? haha... Somethings are just to diffcult to control. And try to put ourselves in other people shoes. If you can't even do something that simple, then I think you are FUCK up. Seriously... I hate people who always think of themselves.

2nd thing is a sentence I saw on the tv. Xi huan ren jiu jiang. Bu shi nan ren jiu bu yao jiang. haha... These words really lighten up my mind. haha...

3rd thing is a funny thing when today i came back. I was sitting on the bus-stop when there were two girls who was alighting. One of them look at me and " AHHH!!! hao xiang ou xiang leh, Shi bu shi ming xing ah?". Then everyone ot the bus-stop look at me. =.= haha... But was quite funny.

Well, that's all. haha... These few days feel tired easily. Don't know why... Maybe because of the time table. ZZZ...

Ok. I go 'Oink Oink" already. Night all.... ZZZzz...

Tired...

2007-04-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

Wah... Really tired after today first day of semester 2.1~~~

Lucky I know some people from my class sem same class as me. Today first day do so much things already. SO tired...

Now blogging eyes also want to close.

Anyway, my birthday coming soon... Wonder how to celebrate it...

Ok... I'm going to head for 'lala' land now... Night all...~~~zzz

FTT passed!!!

2007-04-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

haha... I just passed my FTT. haha... So happy. Because I passed it in 1 shot. That's something not everyone can do it. *whistle*

But still quite a long way before I can drive.

Anyway, today went fishing with my dad and bro. We didn't caught alot. Just some small fishes. haha... Then sudden rain pour and we hurry back to my bro's Class 5 lorry. haha... Class 5 driving licence not easy to get. But I think maybe I will learn when I come out from NS.

Now feeling a bit sick. Must be the cause of the rain...

School starting too... Got to get ready for semester 2.1

Yeah... Will end here... bye...

World is fair...?

2007-04-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

I'm not going to post the story of K and T in my blog anymore. If you guys want to know more, tell me on msn. If you guys want to know the more about the story, can ask me on msn. haha...

Hmm... Is the world fair? Someone of it might say its fair because you have the things you want. People might say the world is fair. But I don't really agree with it. Not because I don't have the things I want, but rather bad things keep happening to my family. I'm quite tired of my life sometimes...

haha... I remember when my mum went to England for work when I was in sec 5. The moment she step into the custom, tears began falling from my eyes and I began to cry. You might say I'm a cry baby, but my relationship with my mum is not just 19 days of bonding but 19 years. Imagine if 1 day, our parents really depart from this cruel world, what would you do...

Nonetheless, I'm happy with my family. My parents, sis and bro. I have some good buddies too. Long, Yang and Xin. haha... I have yet to find a good partner only... Can I find 1 before NS...? haha...

Not much to say already, very tired... Sleeping soon. Adios...

6 wierd things...

2007-03-26T10:31:00.000+08:00

haha... I was choosen to post 6 wierd things about myself.

Here they are...

1st--- I like to paint my nails black or white every now and then. haha... This is really wierd. Some of my friends have seen it already. haha...

2nd--- I need to listen to Jay's song everyday. If I never listen, I will feel different. haha... That's why when I hear Jay's song, I will feel high... haha...

3rd--- When I was young, I could play those video games with my controller upside down. haha... How I do it, I also not so sure with myself. That's why Im wierd. haha...

4th--- I can be quite lazy at times that i don't even want to get out of my bed when I have more than 12 hours of sleep. haha...

5th--- I like fishing but I don't really like to eat fish. haha... Fishing is fun but eating fish with bones can be quite troublesome in my opinion. haha...

6th--- I love writing lyrics about other people. Because they give me the inspirations. haha...

That's the 6 wierd things about me.

Number 20

2007-03-26T10:27:00.000+08:00

But fate wasn’t kind to K. Fate posted K to a place where everyone had evil in their hearts. Every single person in that place were bad. K felt very unhappy there… it made him stressed up, and his health problems came back again. Once again he couldn’t eat well… and he felt terrible every single day of his life there.But the worse thing that happened to K, was that he became bad tempered. He was back to the old K.. T had no more power to nurture him.. as she no longer spends that much time with K….. one night.. k told T “ how I missed the times when we just finished our A levels … Everyday was so carefree…” K doesn’t know whether now T remembered that sentence…. But it was a very meaningful sentence, Those were the times when K and T were the happiest…Everyday was happy, there was no worries, no problems… all they can be was to enjoy life… but now.. K had to have responsibilities.. no mistake can be done at work or he would face disciplinary actions.. K felt sad… K needed to breathe…

and as each day passed.. K changed.. K became a “bochup” which means everything that comes to K he didnt care... His character changed as well.. he became bad tempered, that was the main change, but the worse change was that he begun to treat T bad temperedly as well.. ( I m not sure whether there is the word bad temperedly”) haha.. Yah, and he treated T bad temperedly. Many times he quarrelled with T, and caused T to feel hurt and sad, and Everyday T felt sad that K treated her that way…Tdidn’t understand what K was going thru, the fact that he was stuck in NS for 2.5 yrs, K wasn’t mentally prepared.. he wasn’t mature enough to.. But T endured it.. T didn’t say anything about her crying alone at night… T didn’t put it across to K that she felt really really hurt… No one told K about it too.. K himself didn’t know that he changed to become so hack care of T and bad tempered..it was really scary.. he didn’t know that he himself have changed….

K enlisted in apr 2001, and there was a certain JC dance event that was in May every year It was memorable to K and T as in the year 2000, K and T went to that event together… That was when they had their first dance..K and T didn’t go to nightspots.. so the only chance they could dance was when there was such events. K could still remember how he hugged T when he danced with her… the feeling was just great.. T was K’s everything at that time.. He almost cried out tears of joy that night… but he didn’t tell T, as it was dark. T was from dance, and so she decided to go back to school in the year 2001…K decided to take leave for that day, and so K and T prepared to go back to school together. Before that day, K kept thinking and reminiscing about the same time last year when he had T in his arms and dancing with emotions… He kept thinking that he had to dance with T that night… T was from dance, so naturally K asked T to get 3 tickets, one for him, and 2 for his 2 friends, the 2 whom accompanied him to watch T dance before at Suntec. K wanted so badly to have another dance with T.

Although K had become more bad tempered, the love he had for T was still strong and burning within. So when T and K went back to school.. K had many memories.. He remembered all the times when he had spent in school with T.. But he didn’t know that T was very unhappy.. T cried every night.. but K didn’t know.. T suffered many things.. but she didn’t let K know…I have said many things about K bad habits.. but T also had a bad habit… she didn’t want K to know her sadness, and her hurt.. Never did she told K that she had been crying every night since K became bad tempered and was stern to T. So K didn’t know why T was acting strangely the whole day. K was insensitive, and to make matters worse, T often suffered in silence. K took leave that day, the first time he took leave .. and it was only a month into his service. So he hope tat his leave didn’t go wasted… For the whole day he thought of dancing with T… but in T’s head.. she had other thoughts… she decided that she couldn’t take K’s bad temper anymore.. she wanted to break up with K.

Changed a new and simple blogskin.

2007-03-24T00:28:00.000+08:00

haha... I changed my blogskin to something sweet and simple. haha...

Today went watch TMNT with my friends. haha... The show movie was nice. I like Ninja Turtles when young. I even played the game too. haha...

Waiting for Jay's 3rd concert and 8th album to come out this year. Can't wait for it... Today heard a music 东风破 by a guy. haha... forget his name. He play the music of this song with a sexaphone... The music of the song really makes you in other world. This song is sung by Jay. But I didn't buy the CD, because only got this music in his album. haha... I only buy Jay stuffs. haha...

FTT coming soon... On 13th april. As usual, people say I'm going to fail... I'm going to prove them wrong again...

Stop here... Take care everyone... Good Night... zzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Number 19

2007-03-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

He was crazy over T... but he never told T about it... he never let T know how hapy he is to have her as his gf and didn't tell her that everytime he woke up he is happy that he is with her... T didn't mind going to K's place to look for him...But life was never ever going to be the same for K and T… K was male, and all males got to go to NS. T was a JC student, and she gotta go to university. When K realised it, he began to lose all his confidence… but still, he didn’t show it. He believed that their love could stand the test of time. Although he know that T would wait for him, he often accused T of not going to wait for him…

K had this bad habit of saying what is untrue.. He kept saying that when he enlist, T would go to university and run off with another guy.. he is insecure… Many pple told K that the real test happens between couples when the guy is off to NS and the girl is off to university.. which made K scared… The more K got scared, the more he said it… he kept saying.. that T would leave him… T didn’t know what to say.. T loved K... and she hoped for K to trust her… but K often made it seem like he doesn’t trust T...It is really very bad. Throughout the whole time that K and T were together, K had never ever doubted T before.. but also throughout the whole time that they were together, K made it seem like he had never trusted T before… Don’t ask me why K is like that, I guess this is his insecure trait…

So when that day when K went for his medical review, T prayed hard for K to be Pes E or some pes which he didn’t have to stay in, so that she could meet him at night…And so K went for his review.. and he wanted to scare T as usual.. K loved to tease T.. he liked to test T too… sometimes he do things just to test T… and this time.. he called T.. and he said.” Oh no, they give me Pes A.. I die already.. and he began to sound sad.. he said.. I m going to lose u T.. I cant meet u at night or whatever … and u will leave me… and he said… sorry… I m very sad now… I really don’t know what to do… take care T…” and T began to become very sad… she said “ don’t worry K, even though u are pes A , I will not leave you… I will still wait for u … “

K was touched, and he said.. haha..i am not Pes A.. I am temporary pes E… for 1 year… that time was january.. And T was delighted… I didn’t know that girls can be so happy when their bf is Pes E. It puzzled me.. I always thought that Pes A is macho, strong, and is the type that girls would look for… but I was wrong… T was very happy that K was Pes E… she kept saying “ happie! Happie!…..” it was indeed a touching moment…So K and T both found a job… a temporary job…. Before he enlists and before T went to university...

Results out...

2007-03-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hmm... My results came out for today. I didn't do so well as expected... My GPA got 2.9231. Same as my last semester. haha... I didn't study for this sem. Guess I will work hard for 2.1...

Modules

ANALOGUE ELECTRONICS
C+

COMPUTER PROGRAMMING
C+

CREATIVITY AND APPLIED THINKING SKILLS
D

ELE & ELECT PRACTICAL SKILLS
B+

ELECTRICAL & ELECTRONICS DRAWINGS & CAD
B+

ENGINEERING : A CREATIVE PROFESSION
B

ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 2
B+

SPORTS AND WELLNESS
PX

Not really good... Sigh... Must have been thinking too much...

FTT on 13th April... Must pass this 1 time.

Number 18

2007-03-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

And that night was a night that they would never forget. they spent some intimate moments together... After T locked the door, she climbed over to K's bed and......and after some time they begin to sleep. The time was about 3am. for one hour, t and K slept... while sleeping, suddenly T heard someone calling her... "sis, sleep with me please..." and there was T's little cousin... K and T both woke up... they realised that they had slept in each other's arms. T, with sadness in her eyes, climbed out of bed and wenr to the other bed to sleep... from that moment, K and T began to look at each other again... They looked and looked, and once again they were seperated by that floor. they didn't know how long they looked into each other's eyes... but they eventually dozed off.

But there are no relationships in this world where there are no problems... Although T and K had a 9 month honeymoon period, they were not spared of problems. T was a girl who changed because of K. T gave in everytime, and she put in lots into the relationship. But T was an insecure girl. T was the mose insecure girl in the whole world. Since the first day she told K she liked him, she was afraid that K might go back to X. So T would do anything just to keep K, she was insecure. If she knew that K loved her deeply too, maybe she might not have felt so insecure but anyway that is her character.K on the other hand, was a jealous freak. Whenever T went out with guys or gave guys her number, K would get jealous and become unhappy with T. There was once when the guy who T liked last time msged her, and K became angry. And he brgan to pass sarcastic remarks about T still feeling something for him and asked T to go back to chase him or something like that. K knew that T would not do anything like that, but he stil said it to hurt T. As I have said, K was a guy who often didn't meant what he said... He never ever meant in his life to hurt T.

There was once when he told T, that if next time he said anything to hurt her, he told her to bear in mind that it wasn't what he actually meant. But this was a big problem that K had. how was T suposed to know when K was being serious and when he wasn't? K was very silly. He knew T loved him deeply, but still he got angry with T everytime she did something that made him jealous. there was once T became very hurt... and she cried again... K knew that it was his fault that he hurt T, but still he felt that it was T's fault for always doing things that made him jealous, and so he didn't apologize. K had a big problem with apologizing, till now he ralises it, but at that time, he didn't. He hasn't grown up... Now, K learned how to apologize.. but uts already too late... it was like K had a spell casted on him.. to make every bad habit about him change.. Why did he do so? It was because true love that made him change...

But as I have said, T loved K deeply. Whenever T quarreled with K, she would feel very very sad n hurt, but in the end, she would always give in. The love she had for K was overwhelming... K on the other hand, is used to T apologizing and giving in, and began to take T for granted. Since the start of the story I have said that T lived in the west while K lived in the east, and the journey between their houses were 1.5hrs... And do u know what T did everytime? T went to K's house to look for him everytime... T didn't mind spending 1.5hrs to go to K's house to see him. T was the best girl that any guy could ever have... Although to many people, T is not a good girl, but to K, T was the greatest girl that he knew... Everytime K wake up on his bed, he would think to himself... "hey, T is mine... do you know?"

Tong Ren Bu Tong Ming

2007-03-12T15:22:00.000+08:00

Tong Ren Bu Tong Ming... Really agree with this statement.

Same human being... But with different life...

2 person... 1 rich and 1 poor. The rich can buy anything they want. The poor on the other hand might thinks why his life compare to the rich is so unfair. Althought we often say money can't buy many things. But the world has make money to be more important than anything else.

Sigh...

Number 17

2007-03-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

Although K missed T every single day, and didn't feel like doing anything else except waiting for K a night, T felt the same too. Over at that country, T made those bands for K. She made a single one everytime she thought of K. She missed K dearly too. Although they were young, they had made plans to be together for a long time. Each band she made was with all her heart and soul, she put her mind into it and with every band she made, K was the one who made her go on making and making. Before T left, K asked T to do some handicrafts for him if she missed him, and T didn't respond, but while she was over there making these bands, she didn't let K know as well. She meant for it to be a surprise when she comes back to Singapore.So K and T had a difficult one month... everyday that passed made the heart grew founder... So when T came back, k was delighted... he was filled with happiness... he told himself that he would never let T go away for such a long time anymore. He knows that T would be the person that is going to be in his life forever. T missed too... when she came back, the first person that she called was K. The first person that she wanted to meet was K... Love is a funny thing... Love makes two people do things that they have never done before in their life... K learnt this the hard way...

So when T came back, the bond btw K and T became stronger. Then came a time when T had a chalet.. It was her family's chalet.. the chalet lasted 3 days 2 nights, but T's family was only going to the chalet on the 2nd day. And so, T wanted K to go to the chalet with her, her 2 brothers, and her brother's wife, and her little cousin. Her little cousin was a very cute girl, around 9 years old. K wanted to go to the chalet with T too. The chalet was in sentosa, and K went all by himself to the chalet...The time spent at the chalet was the most memorable time in the story of K and T... It was like this... K and T hadn't spent any time over night before. As T was a protected girl, the only time she can spend her time at night outside was when she was either with her parents or a gathering with the teacher. So when K can make it for this chalet, T was delighted... she could spend a night with K, and her parents wouldn't know. T planned for K to come and discussed how to not let her parents know with her two brothers... And so... K came to the chalet... That night, there was a bbq. Everyone tried to eat whatever they cooked, but they couldn't make it... the fire was too weak. In the end, hey threw everything into the oven and started to cook... It was a funny sight.

T and K were at tha chalet like a married couple, they did everything together, like washing plates, cleaning ovens, and cooking. They helped each other, and shared whatever food they have.. burnt or uncooked. Haha. It was a heartwarming to c T and K so happy that day. The day passed so fast that in a flash.. it was night...T's brother had arranged for K and T and her little cousin to sleep in the master bed room, with K on a single bed and T and her cousin on the master bed. They put the little cousin in the room to prevent T and K from doing anything funny... T and K both knew it, but T and K just wanted to spend a night together. As the night became later, T and K couldn't get to sleep. K turned to look at T, and T turned to look at K, seperated by the floor between the two beds. For many minutes, they kept staring at each other. K wanted to hug T and pull her under with him, but there was the little cousin that was still awake and they didn't want her to know anything. when T and K climbed into bed, it was 12 O clock. And for the time from 12 O clock till 2 O clock, although both were already very tired, They didn't get to sleep... they were waiting for T's little cousin to sleep first. They long to sleep together.Every minute passed, and the longing became higher. finally, there was no more sound from T's cousin... the time was about 2am.. T stared to climb out of bed and went to lock the door...

New life or continue with my old life...

2007-03-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... I don't know whether there will be a new life waiting for me or my old life still continues on...

I hope my life still continues on. Sometimes, things just don't go the way we want... Kind of sad that we need to face all these...

It is easy to decieve others, but it is hard to decieve yourself. Humans should always be true to themselves.

And you want something, you don't just sit there and dream. Fight for that thing you want.

But I find it so hard to fight for somethings I want...

Maybe dreaming is better after all... Sigh...

Number 16

2007-03-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

K rushed home everyday, hoping that T would cal soon... there were many times when K's family members were using the phone... and he quarrelled with his sister many times and begged his parents to keep the line free from 10 to 11, hoping that T would call. For the first few days, K waited, he waited every single day...When 10 O clock came, he was filled with hope... Every single min passed, and K felt sadder each minute... For the first day, K waited patiently by the phone... Each minute brought feelings to him... he was hoping, waiting, thinking, missing his love, T. People might think K was stupid to sit by the phone for 1hr everyday and doing nothing else, but that was what he did. So each and every minute passed and T didn't call K for the first day. K at 10 O clock and K at 11 O clock was entirely different. K at 10 O clock was someone filled with hope, but K at 11 O clock was a sad, dejected, disappointed man. Although it was only a call, it meant everything to him at that time.

Everyone knows that K was bad tempered, wasily angered, had male chauvinism, and never admits he is in the wrong when he is... but K had some good qualities, and one of it was he was an emotional, sentimental guy. He was kind hearted and thoughtful many times. He would think of others first before himself, and had a good sense of humour. All these qualities that K had, the best one was sentimental. K never failed to take out the pictures he took with T to see. So K waited wach passing day... and each passing day he became sadder... he kept thinking... why hadn't T called him?Finally, one of these nights, K was once again sitting by the phone by 9.55pm... he shut out everyone when they wanted to use the phone... he was selfish... he must make the line free for T to call... any call looking for his sister he would tell them to call back at 11.... and so that night... K waited... earnestly... everyday passed he became disappointed, but when the next day came, he became filed with hope again. So he waited, and waited... K could still remember the time which T called... it was exactly 10.25pm. He waited for 25mins, and when the phone rang, he knew it was T... he just had that feeling...

To hear T's voice after so long was like heaven to him. He was overwhelmed with joy... the first thing he asked T was..."Do u know I was waiting for u everynight to call me? Why did u take so long?"But K didn't blame T, as long as T called, it didn't matter if K needed to wait for many days... So K and T began to talk, it was very mushy. Although they were in different places, K could feel T beside him... K could feel the warmth of T... But the cal was short loved... every call that T made cost about 10-15 sing dollars, and it was only for a short 10 to 20mins... But T spent all the money she had to call K. T didn't mind spending at all, she knows that every min spent talking to K was worth it. One night, T told K, that she has no more money to call K anymore, and that would be the last time..K didn't want that to happen... so he told T to use her family's phone to make long distance call instead of going to public payphones. So T decided that would be good... And so T used her family's phone to call K, and they ended up talking a lot. T's family over there was rich, so they wouldn't mind. K asked T, then would u come back to spend christmas with me> and T replied, I will try my best to go back before christmas...

Sian......

2007-03-08T13:36:00.000+08:00

Why my family so unlucky... All bad things keep coming to us. I don't understand... Sigh... I don't know what to do... Feel so lost and empty with my family...

I wish God would take me home... At least I won't have the worries anymore...

Sigh...

Number 15

2007-03-08T13:29:00.000+08:00

And the A levels went passed. Straight after the A levels, K and T begin to go out each week... as many times as they wanted.. they were into the happiest time of their lives... but happy times are often short lived.K's birthday was in december, and T, one day, told K that she had to go back to a certain country. T's maternal family was from this country, and so she had to go back to visit... and whenever T went back to visit, it would take about a month... K was shattered... K really loved T and T realy loved K, and T didn't want to go, but she had no choice... So when T told K, K became very sad... K didn't know whether he would miss T like crazy.At that moment, it was about 8 months into the relationship, but they were still having their honeymoon period. On that day before T went to indonesia, K said something that made him and T cry... K began...

"when I see people hand in hand during the time when u were in indonesia, I will think of u.... When I see couples laughing hapily... I will think of u... When I see couples sitting together in the mrt, and I turn to my side, there would only be a blank seat... I can only imagine u there being with me... it's really sad... When I see couples watching movies together, I also would want to watch a movie with u, but as I turn around to coment about the movie, I would see no one but a blank seat..When I want to put my arms around u, I would hapily stretch my arm... and realise that all I'm hugging was thin air.. When at night I feel like calling you, I would dial ur number, xxxxxxx, and ring... and there will not be anyone to pick up the phone... I will think of u when I take out our photos to see, I will think of u when I see the gifts u have given me before... I will think of ou every night and every second, because I love you..."

And so K was in tears, and T was touched... T didn't know K would cry for her, but she saw that... Although at this point of time everyone may think that K is being crappy, Let me tell u all that K really meant it in his heart... and so, T finally left... throughout the first few days, everyday was unbearable for K and T... K wanted so much to talk to T, and T missed K so much. K was sad everyday, everything he did seemed to have no meaning. he went out with friends, played computer games, played pool, watched movies, went bowling... but everything he did, he did it just because of doing it. he didn't do it because he felt like doing it, he just had nothing to do. All he could do all day was think of T.T said that when she had found her family there, she would call him, and she would only call him at 10pm as there would be a timing difference btw that country and singaporand so she fixed a time with K. So everyday, K ould go bowling, play pool, play computer games, go out, movie, eat, shop... he would do everything... but whenever the time time reaches 9, K dould rush home like cinderella who was going to turn into a maid. K rushed home everyday to wait patiently for T's call. As I write this story, I can't help but have tears coming into my eyes. (Edititor's feelings... not my own feelings..)

Nice...

2007-03-05T15:14:00.001+08:00

Wah... After a gym today, my body feel so good but tired. haha... I never had a workout for like 2 years already. It feel so great to sweat. haha...

Last Saturday, went out with my friends. haha... We went to cycle at East Coast Park. Cycle halfway, rain starts to pour down on us. haha... But luckily, the rain last only for about 5 mins. We resume our cycling after that.

After cycling for a while, we play poker cards. haha... We were playing Big 2 and I trapped them with double. haha... But we nv play money... :( haha...

After that, we went to sing at K box. haha... I really like my voice alot. haha... I keep stressing my voice. haha... I sang 菊花台, 分裂, 浪漫手机, 你听得到, 上海一九四三 and 梯田. haha... I really like 菊花台 alot Im in love with it. haha... I can even make the voice when the chorus comes. haha...

Hope to have the next outing again. haha...